Am I being haunted by cats?

I hope so. I was brought up with two cats, who died when I was 13 and 17. After the latter died I began having dreams about them. 4 years on, they still haven't stopped and now they are more frequent than ever. I will give you a back story just because I like thinking… Continue reading Am I being haunted by cats?


Archives of Pain

Now Playing: Life Becoming A Landslide - Manic Street Preachers Comments on my (ongoing) mental illness recovery. This post is intended for me to get it off my chest and also to let anybody going through anything similar know they are not alone. Thanks for reading if you choose to do so. I will update as… Continue reading Archives of Pain

Why I Disappeared for Months & Other Stories

Now Playing: Feeder - Just A Day On 23rd September 2017 I embarked on a new adventure in my life and started my year abroad. I'm currently residing in Bremen, Northern Germany (it's near Hamburg...). It's a wonderful city, but studying abroad is tough when you're also dealing with general anxiety and depression (and, probably, separation… Continue reading Why I Disappeared for Months & Other Stories

Me, Vaginismus and I

First of all, I'd like to say I'm writing this to get it off my chest really, to work through it all myself. And also just in case anybody else has similar experiences to me, you're not alone. (Please have similar experiences to me I feel kinda alone) I don't know when/how it started, but… Continue reading Me, Vaginismus and I

The Couple Next Door – Book review

Just finished: The Couple Next Door - Shari Lapena When I saw that this book was hailed the new The Girl on the Train I thought, oh no, I've already read that. Will this book bore me to death? The similarities are obvious from the get-go, but so are the differences. Both are worth a read. The… Continue reading The Couple Next Door – Book review

Thing that make me feel alive.

Now Playing: Summertime - My Chemical Romance The piano version of that song, that makes me feel alive. It has a melody that makes me feel like I'm on drugs, good drugs. Better than drugs. There She Goes by The La's has a similar effect. and This Night Has Opened My Eyes by The Smiths, my… Continue reading Thing that make me feel alive.

Obvious, but important, things I learned from cognitive-behavioural therapy

After suffering on my own with anxiety and depression for about 5 years, last year I finally got forced to get some professional help. A CBT therapist is what I was handed. Sadly, the sessions did not cure me. But they have helped me to realise when I am being ridiculously irrational, resulting in better… Continue reading Obvious, but important, things I learned from cognitive-behavioural therapy

“…but don’t forget the songs that saved your life…”

Now Playing: Rubber Ring - The Smiths Everyone has that one thing don't they? That girl at school with the weird horse obsession. The guy who just loved cars (started compensating at an early age?). What's my thing, you ask? Music. Or perhaps more specifically, men who are mentally disturbed. Fall Out Boy quite recently sang… Continue reading “…but don’t forget the songs that saved your life…”

Book Review: ‘The Artificial Silk Girl’ – Irmgard Keun

Translated by Kathie von Ankum from the German original, this short novel should be deemed a masterpiece in 20th century literature. However, due to Nazi censorship it was sadly almost forgotten about. A revival of the novel came about at the turn of the century, and after reading it I can understand why. This is novel full… Continue reading Book Review: ‘The Artificial Silk Girl’ – Irmgard Keun